Today my heart is aching, along with my stomach. My entire abdomen is nothing but dull pain. The stomach thing started Wednesday morning… I don’t know if it’s just my anxiety ratcheted up to a hundred or what. I don’t want to be some insane person who shows up at the Urgent Care with an upset stomach when it isn’t anything serious. What if it is just nerves? Anxiety? Stress? But then again… why bother going when I honestly don’t care if I live or die anymore?

It’s not sharp it’s just annoying. It was sharp Wednesday morning and has since dulled. I’ve tried taking anything related to stomach issues and it’s still there. Thus… I assume it’s just anxiety. Life is shit right now. Has been for the last fucking 8 years. And the horizon just looks like raging fire and smoke. With any luck I’ll have stomach cancer and it’ll take me away from this hellscape. With my luck though I’ll reincarnate the next day to the child of a MAGA mormon family…